CANADA JUST LIKE FULL GAY
All of connecticut is super in the middle except for hartford county which i super gay curious lolololol
I remember my heart stopping,
when you sat down next to me.
The air taken right out of my lungs,
when you spoke to me.
Your mesmerizing eyes,
your indescribable laugh.
I remember the car ride home,
hoping for that text.
My heart jumping out of my chest,
when i saw you the day after the next.
The fear that came over me,
as i tried to pull away… distressed.
I remember the guilt,
the sorrow, the pain.
Trying to ignore you
but done in vain.
laughing the next day.
Dunkin’, hanging out, talkin,
sometimes yupp is all you’d say.
I remember the light shining down,
you’re beauty overwhelming.
Feeling scared, excited, happy,
hoping you’d come to me like you kept saying.
but not knowing how.
Wanting to kiss you,
but no not now.
I remember falling for you,
Slowly realizing my heart was…
waiting for the right moment.
Sitting outside, by the pond, by the door,
wondering if you wanted more.
I remember standing next to you,
as you sat on the wall.
That voice in my head…
hearing it call.
"Do it! yes, you want to.
go ahead”… if only you knew.
Something came over me
and suddenly i felt you..
Your lips, so soft
My heart pounding,
as our fingers intertwine.
Not breathing, not wanting to stop,
Holding onto that moment,
with every fiber of my being.
I remember you,
I remember me,
I remember us
I got lost long ago
Found myself in a dark dark place
Lost myself surrendering to a slower pace
Lost all feeling
No love… no hope…
Had only one thing…
Only mine to give
A sacred gift
With my life to live
I walk ahead.
You found me there,
Just like that.
Out of nowhere you came,
Swooping out of the dark like a bat.
I thought you found me,
The girl i’d been searching for.
Saved me, brought me back to who I knew before…
But truth be told…
All you did was prove my point,
Something I was always told.
I don’t need someone to make me happy.
I just need to be bold.
Go out on my own
Make my way
And start a new day
So fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me
I won’t make the mistakes I’ve made before, do the things I did before
Congratulations… Keep the gift, no regrets
I won’t look back
I won’t forget…
The shit you said
The things you did
The truth you told
The feelings you hid.
Take a life but don’t take mine.
Go on your way
Don’t look back
I’ll be fine.
You’re like a razor blade.
The best taste of reality one can get when shit goes south.
You have that smooth mysterious beauty to you that calls my name on the worst of days.
You always happen to be there when there’s no one else around.
Cascading into my mind after the dam cracked and water came rushing through.
You gave me that rush you feel when the cold blade touches your skin.
Fear and excitement with just a touch of joy and arrogance.
Then comes the initial sting of the first betrayal as the blade sides across your skin…
And for a moment everything stops.
Now you stand there, watching in awe as it draws blood from your skin.
Some bundled mess of emotions ranging from smug happiness to fear and guilt.
You think you’ve gotten away with something great because it felt so damn good.
But little did you know…
Once It’s over, the pain sets in and you’re facing the reality you were running from while the pain of your name lingers on my arm…
but honey right now…
I’m craving a razor blade.
She’s got the lips of an angel, the body of a goddess and my mess of a heart I can’t untangle.
She’s got me on my knees gun to the back of my head… waiting for the shot cause she’s all I’ve got.
This cold cold soul, my heart it aches for her
Pull the trigger now and we can go farther
down this road
no one to save
a road unknown
ours to pave
Her words so soft and tender. Her words so loving and kind. Her face so genuine and fragile. Her look paralyzing and heart stopping. I can’t shake it. I know i shouldn’t… i know i should walk away but i just can’t. So tell me you love me. Baby I’m here. Just say the word and everything becomes clear. I want you here next to me. but we can’t be three. It’s me or her you know that well. Say the word and I’ll come running. The past is a place we can’t dwell in for to long. for if we do, we’re sure to lose, all we have and all that’s good.